down right now

Well I have been MIA due to I just hate being negative. But I am right now. I do not know what to. I am in Florida visiting family & friends with my son. I can't believe he will be 5 months in a few days. I am very happy to be here. I have missed them a lot. It is wonderful to introduce my son to everyone. However.. yes I miss my husband like crazy. But being married and being a mommy has cause me to loose a lot of my friends. So it is very hard. I also can not see everyone the short time I am here so that causes drama. Some of you know I struggle with depression. I hate having to take pills to be okay or NORMAL. Sometimes they help but sometimes not. Lately I am feeling worthless. I am find myself hating myself & my life. When I try to talk to those close to me.. I do not get the support I want or feel I need. I do not know what to do. I miss blogging. Hopefully getting back to it will help. I have been reading up on all ya'lls blogs. :) Which helps for a bit.
Well God Bless!