Thursday, March 31, 2011

A Beauty Of Mommyhood

It is 1:21am and I am awake in the nursery trying to get my son to sleep in his crib. This is the hardest and most heartbreaking thing I have ever had to do in my 21 years of life. He turned 8 weeks on Tuesday so it is time for us to not do the co-sleeping thing. He was sleeping in his bassinet but he is too long for it so we went to co sleeping b.c I was selfish and wanted my sleep so we both slept better with him sleeping with us. Well now that is all he wants to do majority of the time. Time to nip this habit in the bud early. So here I am at 1:20am. I tried the cry it our method.. Props to all you moms that can do that. But I just can't it literally causes me to hurt. He does okay as long as I am in the room with him. From all my reading of research it is b.c this is new to him. So tonight I will sleep in here with him. Then tomorrow or a few nights from now I will be going back to my room if this works. I got him to sleep now with the heartbeat going on his swing (i guess ill have to go buy the cd of it so I don't use the batteries on his swing) and I have the vibration pack from his bouncer in his crib and he is proped up in his boppy. He finally went to sleep and has STAYED asleep the longest like this. Yes my son is spoiled okay. But o well. Atleast he is asleep l0l. To sleep in his bassinet he wanted a lot of padding. I am the same way to sleep, guess he gets that from me. So since I can't put a lot of passing in there with him using pillows or blankets. I used a memory foam bath mat under his bassinet pad and it worked. So he has been spoiled since day one. 

 I got some really cute pictures I am gonna post soon. I still can't believe he is 8 weeks old already. He is out of newborn diapers and in the size ones. But they are a lil big on him still. He is pretty much out of the newborn sizes but I am squeezing him in them still be the 0-3s are mostly to big for him. He is to long for newborn but to skinny for 0-3 l0l. I want him to get out of this " in between" stage but then again  I want him to be little longer. 

All I gotta say is You gotta love the Roller Coaster Ride of Mommyhood right. We want them to grow up but then again they grow up to fast & we want them to stay little.

Well good night this mommy is gonna right to get some rest tonight!

Thursday, March 24, 2011

Wonderful Day!!

So today was one of the most awesome fun days. I finally felt like my old self. I have 3 of my girls come over today. We were supposed to craft.. but instead we just hung out and talked. It was a lot of fun. We had my son, Jackie's lil girl, Abbi that is 5, almost 6 months old. Then Corrine's lil girl that is 2. We played and then since it was actually sunny out we went for  walk to the park. It was so much fun!! Here are some pictures and the link to my you tube page.. I posted videos from today too :) Check them out!! I can't believe he is 7 weeks old!!! WOW!!!  :)


I'm excited to stay busy like today. I see how much better I do. I have been having some issues with my depression again. But I think I am finally coming out of it. YAY!!! 

I LOVE you guys by the way!! Ya'll are amazing!!! <3 THANK YOU!!! BIG HUGS!!

Tuesday, March 22, 2011

I'm a Mommy!! WOW

I still can't believe that I am a mom!! My entire life I have always loved kids and wanted to be a mom. Now I am and I can't believe it. Each day I fall in love with my son all over. He is a master at stealing my heart. :)
My life feels complete having my amazing hubby and our perfect beautiful son. I can't believe he is 7 weeks today. Where has all the time gone.
Sorry that I have not been writing as much since he arrived. I am still figuring out the balancing act of a mom. We are trying to get him on a routine and to sleep in his crib during the day. He is almost to big for his bassinet. So if ya'll have any advice or suggestions please tell me :)
Also I am trying to get over this weird boob thing I have :( I have one that produces GREAT and FAST but my other is like ehh on producing milk. Like I pump now so he gets atleast one bottle a day.. usually at night. It also give me a break and my hubby gets bonding time. Well when I pumped I got 6oz on the one that is great and 1.5 on the not so great one. Its annoying. and its not even like my boobs match..they are totally different sizes. I hate it! I have ocd so I am like they are not even.. but I can't fix it. :(

Military roller coaster going on lately too. So my hubby's deployment got moved to April 6th.. aka our wedding anniversary.. I was devastated How could I be okay with telling my hubby see ya later for a year deployment on our wedding day. As soon as I am okay with it..they move my hubby. So now he is not deploying next month or any time soon. They have him at the battalion and later said they are putting him with 787th and he will deploy with them. I am so glad that he is not going. He will be here for our son right now. But I must vent and say that I am so sick of the army doing this crap to us.

And currently a lil stressed with the whole : Military might not get paid crap going around. I was not worried bout it til yesterday when they had a briefing at my hubby's work about it. They said that it could very well happen some time. That they will get paid with back pay if it does but even if they do not get paid they have to still come in to work and etc...
UGHHH I hope this does not happen. I hate to say any type of politics but I am not a obama fan and all I know is that this crap rumors or scare whatever NEVER happened before he was in office!!

Here is another cute video of my son!

Friday, March 11, 2011

Xavier Smiles!!

He has been smiling for a while... but never lets me get a picture. Any time I bring the camera out he stops and just looks at me. Or he turns his head and then smiles. L0L!! So of course I trick him and video tape. HAHAHA IT WORKED!
Here he is playing on his new play mat he got today.

Xavier SMILES!! 

Sunday, March 6, 2011

I AM BACK!! :D Labor Story....& Catch up

Good Evening Everyone!!

Boy have I missed ya'll! I really do apologize for being MIA for so long.
I am finally getting back into the swing of things. Let's catch up..

January 31st I went into labor.. I started having contractions ar 7am. I went to the dr at 7:30 to get my membranes scraped and my cervix stretched. At that time I was 2cm dilated. I had steady contractions all day long. I was determined to wait it out as long as I could so I would be dilated more and not play the go in and get sent home game. So naturally I went shopping for a new couch L0l! Seriously I did. Which it was funny b/c I got excellent service since I was in labor. Well at 10pm I got forced by my hubby and my friend Lyssa to go in to Labor and Delivery. Which when L&D checked me I was barely 3cm dilated. I was like are you flipping kidding me. I then got told to walk around the hospital for 2 hrs. I made it a hour and a half of walking off and on before I gave up. Which I gave up bc I was vomiting and I was in so much pain I couldn't walk. When I went back up stairs they checked me and well I did not get told how dilated I was but he looked at me and said well your staying and having a baby. I walked literally across the hall to my room. The lady was waiting to give me my epidural and then my dr showed up. Told me he was gonna break my water and it would be time to push. Sad thing was my baby started having his heart rate drop. NO IDEA WHY! So they said we had to get him out now. Scared me to DEATH! I could not feel anything tho to push b.c it was happening so FAST that my epidural was working to well. So we got it to where I could feel some pressure to push. Then after 45 min of pushing MY son was born at 3:16 AM on Feb. 1st 2011!!!! Oh and we then found out why his heart rate was dropping. The cord was wrapped about his entire body..tightly. But he was perfectly fine. He was 21 inches long and 8 pounds 3 ounces. Head full of hair and blue eyes. He has a birthmark on his right shin. He is perfect! He is advanced too and a excellent baby! He hardly ever cries. Like if he is naked or gets put in the car seat  he cries l0l. He never cries for food or diaper change. He fuses at most. His dr says he is VERY alert since Day 2. He started holding his head up at day 4. He also started rolling over to his sides at Day 4. He is now a month old. Will be 5 week on Tuesday. Weare very blessed!! Here are some pictures. So see more check out my facebook!